What should I do with my life?

   Yesterday night I was thinking about what to do with my life after university graduation. I am already in my third year of university which means from next semester here in Japan I will start my  就職活動, or shukatsu, a kind of job hunting activity when you have to take some test and then apply for thousands of companies (I am exaggerating but my friends have told me that they apply on average for 40-50 companies). And have I told you that job application forms are always filled by handwriting? After that there would be countless rounds of interviews, which are not fun at all. During my first year of university I was so sure that I will come back to my home country and work there, but now I am much contemplated, but wasting my time at some Japanese hierarchy company is not my dream either. Moreover my major is environmental development and overall about social studies, therefore I don’t understand how I can fit in some companies doing paper jobs. The funny thing about Japanese employers is they pay little about your scores and even less about what did you study, which is not the bad thing i suppose. Yes, they look a little bit on your score but they care more about if you can have the assigned job done and they are willing to train you from the beginning that’s why a little attention is paid to what you have studied in college. However they are still hoping that you have caught up with some social skills during your college time such as singing karaoke or drinking.

   With that being said, I am not confident to find myself getting a job that I can absolutely love. And I was thinking what I really want to do with my life. My dream jobs for the last two years were definitely blogger or youtuber. Yes, I know some people might thing that is something shallow and temporarily, but from now on I would like to try more and turn my blog into something that will be more useful for people. I also want to start making youtube videos but I am not very confident talking to many people. Technically I am talking to myself when I would be filming but the thought of being watched by anyone just freaks my out.

    So, in order to make my dream come true, from now on, every day I will at least upload one blog post on this blog. I love writing but never felt inspired enough to keep doing things, but now I have realized how blogging can have so much freedom which I absolutely need to survive.